Inside?

I have such a lack of inspiration these days.
Only things on my mind are getting from point A to point B.
Its a simple mess of wake and learn.
Not a whole lot of creative opportunities in a foundation of business class.
I want to do something. I want to make something, I want to feel like I am of worth again.
Next semester I am taking an intermediate photography class.
There's so much I want to do....so little time in life. It seems like each day I spend without making something Is spent at a loss....


“Necessity is the mother of invention, it is true, but its father is creativity, and knowledge is the midwife”

Journal entry for school lawl

So I was asked to write a journal entry for my Human relations class, of course I want an A, of course my teacher is strange, and of course I do the assignment. I was asked to write about my own personal strengths and weaknesses and then elaborate. blah blah death. anyway here is my assignment I thought might or might not be appropriate to post here.

HR Journal Entry
I am a strong person in many aspects of life. I am highly intelligent, as well as a talented individual.
I have very strong opinions and I often feel the need to express them be it for better or worse.
I’m a social butterfly in every aspect of the phrase, I am very motivated, and outgoing. I can walk into a room and instantly grab everyone’s attention. Although I suppose that I have many highly contradicting weaknesses as well, Most of my strength is immediately combated by a polar opposite. Making me a walking contradiction. I love change but I hate changing. I have high expectations for those around me, yet not as much of myself. I am outgoing and timid.

My personality is a thing to be marveled and just as easily revered. . I read those around me, mold my personality to their liking, and then drop the mask the second I walk out of the room. All the while immediately re inventing myself on what’s almost hourly basis, simply to keep the world around me constantly moving at my own pace. Confusing and spacious is how I like my world to be. Those around me in a constant whirlwind of confusion, while I remain completely centered. As if pushing the merry go round with everyone else on board.
In my own mind, I am restless, in my own mind I am at peace. I have a personal saying I recently created.
You see I created an online screen name ParenthesisX. It represents me in every aspect, and I can break this simple phrase up into hundreds of meanings that pertain to me. Though speaking to one of my colleague the other day I blurted out a mess of metaphors pertaining to me under that persona.

I am Parenthesis
I am (the beginning and the end)
I am the stepping-stone to a mathematical equation with no numbers.
I am the problem and the solution I am ParenthesisX.



I find it enjoyable to be able to easily point out my strengths as well as weakness on a whim.
Although most days I feel, I am colorblind solving a Rubix Cube.

Thinking of things I like

Stuff I find beautiful/inspirational and or relevant to myself and things I like.


Cages
Birds
Ram skulls
puzzle pieces
coffee
city scape
telephone poles
wires
gears
wings
cameras
lenses
mirrors
crowns
headphones
dragons
raspberries
salt shakers
small chests
blue
bottle caps
glasses
tall socks
cathedrals
hallways
arches
spines
hands
shoulders
wrists
collar bones
Water
words
letters
Arabic language
masks
Japanese
old trees
fields
empty places
white
England
snow
eggs
feathers
couches with obnoxious print
mist
fog
skirts
women
paint
carnivals
rabbits
rats
instruments
silence

Operation Make Johanathan's Day Awesome

Target Acquired:


Sending Reinforcements:



(Here Is the Video of my day for those who are TLDR)

Last night I fell asleep talking to Johnathan because He was upset and I told him we would play the next morning and I would make him happy. So both him and I woke up late, myself with a back ache and him with messed up hands from punching concrete all night.

We eventually met up at Apollo Burger and we headed to Blue Boutique and looked at sexual novelties, out of everything we looked at john ended up getting a zippo lighter, a really awesome Jack Daniels lighter might I add.

Eventually after loosing interest in looking at cock rings and obscene cake designs we left our friendly neighborhood novelty store, to divide ways and john and I went on to Little America hotel to check johns schedule, and marcus went to go keep up with his previously scheduled appointment to watch Avatar with my mom.

John and I did indeed visit his work, and then hunger stuck and a large serving of Sushi was in order. We went to simply sushi and spent too much money and learned more about each other than necessary. Afterward we went to Sam Wells book store, and a mini mart, picked up drinks and sat out front of shogun and talked, and by talked I mean held each other tight screaming crying and making a scene, because it sounded like it was a requirement at the time.

"I'm going off to war to serve my people!"
"Why would you leave me like this!?! You should have just kept your job at best buy!"
"Screw Best Buy, War is here, and its calling my name!"
"Oh no john you can't go, what ever shall I do?!"


And so on. We then walked the streets in the general direction of coffee break because I had arranged to meet up with Tony and Marcus there, but of course we got side tracked, John threw up, We laid in a parking lot, we were Madonna for 15 seconds.
Eventually we made it to our destination to meet up with Tony Marcus, and an old friend named Devi.

We sat around joked and went out back and played with flo toys and glow gloves. John and I realized it was drawing close to time to go so marcus myself and john rushed to catch the last bus, and headed home.



Marcus and myself stumbled over to Village Inn and I drew a stripper whore thing, with highly confused looking hair, and we hung out with aldo for about an hour when he got off work.

Now I am home and bed sounds like bliss. I have to work in 5 hours. Go me.

Oh and here is my racist song~!

( X Tattoo

On my last day in Seattle with Zio, we wanted to hang with Graz so we went with Graz to the tattoo shop and agreed to wait while he got his robot filled in.

We picked him up at his work. He works for Starbucks, but he works at like central Starbucks lol as a call rep.
he works here.


I called ahead and set up an appointment for the same time, to get my neck piece done.


I made the appointment with John, he had some awesome dreads ~


It was a really awesome place, the whole upstairs of a loft was all this tattoo parlors.





Placing it in the right spot, we moved it about three times.



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I sat in with graz getting his tattoo shaded as well.





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Zio got his ears pierced as well.


After that we went to this place called the metro and not gunna lie, I would wear that fkn store, absolutely everything in there I loved. Ugh~
So I bought this shirt.



Distracting, I know.

Well, then we went to Graz's other work and I bought a coheed shirt, and then we met up with Jamie and we all went out to eat at Jup Jup Jup, It was uber awesome thai food.

Good day it was.

Hospitals and Porn

As for porn we saw the intern and that was really gay, literally, and some other one that was really lesbian and really bad until the red head came in.

Then we all got interested and I put it in slow mo making it better, and then we heard the car door of my parents vehicle slam and we all shot out of our seat screaming and running, My mom walked in and saw me running and I then fel to the floor and laughed hysterically, along with everyone else in the room.

I then offered my mom some tuna salad, because I was eating it while watching lesbian porn, and she had no idea, turned down my offer and we all laughed more, I am pretty sure I am missing a lung now.

Whew What a day.

this morning on my zio trip

Went to the beach this morning, at 3am zio looks over at me and is like, "wanna go to the beach?" and im in a daze and say okay. he says right now? ...okay. So off we went on one of the most bullshitretardedawesome things I have done in a while, I got to drive his car through really windy roads in the Forrest out to the ocean, and a sea town and then to a cafe that didn't serve chowder and Zio is still offended. lol. Then went shopping in Portland after the drive that almost killed us and took almost 5 hours, Zio bought me a ring I heavily protested and I bought a really fkn awesome bag~! awesome morning.