5/31/09

checkmate

Even if your throne crumbles, and your shiny crown turns to rust, even if the bodies pile up endlessly.
Above the bottomless pile of corpses, beside you as you lay softly down, I will be.
Until I hear the words
"Checkmate."

Confidentiality

So I am choosing to confide in less people as of now.
I am pulling out all my contacts, and am starting over to see who is worth telling anything about my life to.
And those whom I will refrain from personal conversation.

If what I tell you does not harm YOU in any way or pertains to you directly, stay out of it.
I am telling you what I am for the pure sake of telling someone.
Not so you can play search and rescue.
Stay out of whats not your place to begin with.

I don't feel like I can really trust any of my friends.
My secrets will be mine alone from now on.
If you are a lucky individual whom I share any personal information of my life to, then consider yourself incredibly lucky.
I shall relinquish myself to a closed book.

Phil and I

Phil and I broke up recently, It was a mutual thing.
Him and I have an agreement, and that's all anybody needs to know.
I love him to death.
Don't ever question my loyalty to that boy.
You know nothing about it.

Smoke Break

Okay so I luff work a lot.
I worked yesterday from 4 to 12.
omg that was a long ass shift.
specially since its right where its hella busy.

So This guy in deli named tony haz a major crush on me.
and im like uhhh arent you married?
apparently hes getting a divorce, and hes asking me out, im like woah buddy.
woah.

I had so much fun yesterday, the new tent for smoke break is up, and I chiled with dave most the day, hes my crazy asshole juggalo friend. He gives me hard times, everyone in the store gives him them as well.

Oh my god he kicked me in the back of the leg like jeff does, and I slow fell to the ground it was crazy funny!
cuz I kicked him erlier.

Omg and ruth is this old lady mexican chick with to much makeup shes all making silly faces at dave being all "you dont love me, okay I punch you in face den."
all hella mexican and funny as hell~!

Late at night omg so I was like 2 hours away from my shift and saul gets off hella early he just came and stood next to me the remainder of my shift he was off for like 2 hours and im like kid why arent you leavin?
wtf?

So hes all talking to me about old times and this old ladys in front of me and im helping her and sauls all.
"remember that one time when you almost got arrested for that drug charge morgan put on you? with all that heroine?"

and the old ladys all O_____O?

Im like saul, your scaring people go away.

haha


Oh my jeessuuuss, its so nuts, oh and I have to share a locker with dave now cuz mine is infected or something, and I spent half my break trying to open the bastard, I cannot open those things for the life of me.
I walk into the break room.

"does anyone know how to open a locker?!"

lol
*sigh*


much more happened but my mind just went blank
hehe
aww
Good day.


5/30/09

Well at least...


----Recent photo shoot with Brian----
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Time seems to be such a brooding aspect lately.
Yet I feel so cornered and limp in this small window of what they call a lifetime.
Almost as If I'm dead.
Dead, In a box.
But alas,

Life in a box is better than no life at all, I expect. You'd have a chance, at least. You could lie there thinking, "Well. At least I'm not dead.




Photo shoot on the salt flats

So the other day well on the 22nd, sorry I have not updated in a while.
I went to model for a photo shoot by one of my favorite photographers, Cat Palmer.
shes all sorts of awesome.
So Katrina bailed on me and so I was going to have to drive out to wendover alone, and then woot woot, Chris and tony offered to ride with me, and tony has never been there anyway.
So we all piled into my car and off we were.

It was a pretty fun drive up, we stalked a motorcycle cuz we thought it was a cop and I have been really freaked out by cops lately so we were all cautious about it and tried to zoom in on the bike to see if it was a cop bike or not and so we used the zoom on my camera, lol cameras come in such handy.

So it wasint but thats ok.

On our way to the flats we stoped a few times to take some pretty cool landscape photos, and
we come across this random ass tree in the middle of nowhere, as in like this tree and nothing around it for miles and miles, and somehow this little bastard is alive, in salt.
O___O
We were pretty amazed.

Took a photo of tony looking all cool by it haha,
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But it was not just any tree, oh no.
A christmas tree.
wtf?

With a small solar pannel attatched to the lights on it we were all sorts of like what the F***?!
LOL @ us and graz in febuary, that chris was right.
We thought it was a moving crab or alien etc, it really was a random christmas tree.

(lol inside joke)

But anyway we took some shots and it was pretty randomly awesome.

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Get to the flats
I took work off that day so I could do this shit.
been chillin with tony all day, lol I see him alot lately.
But its cool.
So we get there and there was another photoshoot going on for some magazine, it was pretty cool to see all this shit going on with this random red couch out there and a van and all these people and models and ugh it was quite a lot to take in.
It was crazy interesting to see though.
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So we stand around for a while waiting for the other girls to arrive, there were quite a few women.
I was in group one where I ran around with a red cloth and we all danced and shit.
Was pretty fun, minus the fact the flats were hard and crusty and painful on bare feet.
It was pretty crazy though and quite the thing to see.
I personally have been meaning to do a shoot out there with a bunch of models and umbrellas.
haha, eventually right?

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here are a few other shots from that day.
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Cant wait to see how the photos turned out, she did individual shots as well for everyone, I looked like hell but oh well, well see how it comes out eh?

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So it was all sorts of well and dandy, we returned home after stoping at a gas station in nevada.
Turned back ran out of gas in tooele.
Loled about it, had to have chris get us gas. now he probably cant go to this camping trip on the 7th but oh well.

Get home, take chris home , drop tony off at some park so he can chill with this chick, then I get a call from this girl katy, shes not my katrina, shes this pretty girl I really like who I met at work.

She invited me to a party, says shes leaving for it now but I can go to her house get money from her car and drive my ass to layton...


.....

So I do.

Do all that go to layton.

Have an awesome fun time with her at this party, drank a little, other stuff. *cough couch*
chillin at a party with a bunch or hot military men.
And the girl of my dreams.

Get a text from aldo.
Hes all hey im at peace sign park wanna meet me there?
and Im like oh sure im just a good 40 miles from home, and somewhat iniberated.

okay see you soon
So I tell everyone good bye.
Had a great time.

Drive out to see Aldo hes chilling at the park, and me and him sit and talk in his car for quite a while and eat cheezits.

I really like Aldo, hes quite the guy.

*nod nod*

Anyway him and I had a pretty good time hanging out at the park, then he had to go home and as did I seeing to how I had to work the next day.
I had one hell of a day though.
Phew I was beat.

Good times.



5/29/09

I need you AQUARIUS

How unfortunately true...



AQUARIUS





THE Zodiacal Sign of Aquarius commences on January 21st, but for seven days, being overlapped by the "cusp" of the previous sign, it does not come into full power until on or about January 28th. From this date onward it can not take its full strength until February 19th and is then for seven days gradually losing its strength on account of becoming overlapped by the "cusp" of the incoming sign Pisces. Those born people who were born in such "cusp" usually take from the qualities of both signs. These natures generally tend to feel very lonely in life. They are over-sensitive, and easily wounded in their feelings. AQUARIANS have great desire for material gain, but are not greedy. They are tireless workers and are willing to work for what they want, and do not demand more than their fair share. They read character instinctively, and for this reason they "see through" people too easily to be really happy.

People who were born in February are not demonstrative in affection, but feel very deeply.

They are usually high-strung, and their nerves are generally overwrought. This people often lose control and then say or do things that they bitterly regret later.

They are generally very active for the public good, and often give all they have to relieve the distress of others.

They are good thinkers, and are very successful when it comes to debate and argument, and difficult to convince.

They are excellent in business and finance when they apply their minds to such things, but usually they are more successful for others, and make more money for other people than for themselves. Such people are a seekers of knowledge, rational, open-minded, gifted with breadth of vision.

If people born in this sign manage overcame their sensitiveness and developed their will-power, there is no position they would not be able to attain. They are usually successful in some large sphere of action, where they can feel their responsibilities for others. As an idealist AQUARIANS would like to see that everybody is happy and their ambition is to do something important and meaningful.

They take a great interest in public meetings, gatherings of people, and public ceremonies. In spite of the fact that such people love theatres and concerts, and like to be where crowds of people congregate, they often feel lonely.

If born with money, these people rarely show who they are. They are inclined to let their opportunities slip, or realize them only when it is too late. If, however, people born in this period belong to the lower order of humanity they inclined to lose all sense of honor and principle, and are extremely unreliable, tricky in money matters, dishonest, and unscrupulous in gaining what they desire.

As a lovers these people are full of surprises. They simply cannot be happy or fulfilled unless they are free to do as they like. No matter how deeply in love these people may be, they are never willing to sacrifice their autonomy, but they always put honesty ahead of romance.

In general, it is not true that all people who were born in this time are evil people. In fact, those with the Sun in Aquarius are sometimes «one set against many» against great odds or against an institution; for light are at enmity with darkness in the same way that lions are at enmity with hyenas.




Aquarius - The Sign of the Water Bearer

The Aquarias' symbol is the woman, who is holding two vessels in her hands : one contains alive water , another - dead. It symbolises the division between good and evil, black and white. It is in the Aquarias' nature to be interested in science's advanced achievements. For example - computers. In general, she loves to use any modern technical achievements. Sometimes, she shows such a great interest in them, that they can replace contact with people at all. The inner world of people who were born under the sign of The Aquarias is very unstable. There are rather frequently the revolutions take place. That is why these people are usually moody . Though the Aquarias loves everything new she can find there something old .




Friends

They tend to collect friends the way some people put together an art collection. The typical AQUARIAN may have so many friends, but very few confidants. In real friendship or love they get on best with those born from May 21 to June 20, October 20 to 27, and, as a rule, with those who were born in November.




Health

These people are inclined to suffer most from the stomach, often through the nerves of the stomach in some peculiar manner that is difficult to relieve with ordinary medicine. Bad circulation often troubles them and there is often some delicacy of the eyes.




Color

The most favorable colors for them are all shades of what are known as "electric shades," as electric blues and electric grays.




Stones

The birth stones for the period are sapphires, pink topazes, and moonstones.

5/24/09

Who The fuck?

I cant think of anyone who hates me enough to stoop to this.
Im so close to arriving at the door step of everyone I know and punching them in the face in hopes that was the culprit.

If your going to try and fuck with my life, dont bring my parents into it.
They are innocent and bringing shit like this into their life is straight up ridiculous.
If you don't like me, come tell me, or puch me, or destroy something of mine.
Not my parents.
This is just low.


5/20/09


Countdown Clocks, Cool Countdowns at WishAFriend.com

nien du

Graz decided to make the picture better.


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Gräz says:
he is a soldier for your photography
Gräz says:
and he hates jews
Gräz says:
for no reason
Gräz says:
Those are X's for parenthesis X
ParenthesisX says:
LOL
ParenthesisX says:
i bet.


5/6/09

Tony

Always seems to make me feel better.

5/4/09

It still beats

Though I doubt it most times, It still beats.
Its still beating.
its still beating

Tony Boy



So yesterday I was going to do the photoshoot for the Hermit, but a series of unfortunate events made it so I was not able to complete that shoot.
I get a text from katie asking if I want to go to pets mart, but It was super early so I was not to thrilled.
She texts be back a few minutes later and says shes going with katylin.
So I get a text a little later when I wake up and its from tony now asking if I wanted to go get something to eat.
So I casually agree and head out to pick him up.
We end up at buffet city.
Eat much great chinese food and what not while discussing life and friends and love.
I do this a lot with tony.
We get on the subject of photographs and head home.
I take him back to my place and we chill in my office and talk about photography, and I explain to him a bunch of my ideas for the tarot shoot.
He enjoys them greatly, and I get a random burst of inspiration, So we grab a random sign I had in my office and head for Magna.
On our way out there, I see a random field and pull over, we walk quite a distance to an old house and dandy lions, It was quite a pretty scene, side the fact we got eaten alive by mosquitoes and all other bugs.
I only got like 6 frames, but that was all I really needed.
We venture back to my vehicle, and head towards the empress, I stop at chris's and get him since you never know when his fat will come in handy.
So chris comes and hangs out with us.

WE head up to a cemetary and It starts to rain, so I say "tony get out."
Which he does and stands in the rain with an umbrella.
He does a few poses and we all have a merry happy time in the rain doing a shoot.
I enjoyed it greatly.
We then head back to my house for processing, and we all had burgers and macoroni, and we all talked of random nothingness.
Quite fun it was.
Then I took both tony and Chris home.

Here are a few frames from the shoot.







5/3/09

rupert

So after I get out of the gym katies all, "wanna make brownies k lol."

So of course I agree, she comes to my house, we make brownies, really lame ones, and we were hella fat about it.
In fact i'm amazed the brownies got made at all.
We are like bla blabla hermit bla bla photoshoot bla bla cage, so I'm like THAT reminds me~!
So we get in my car an drive to the dudes house to ask him to either borrow or rent the huge bird cage, and hes like uhhhhhh, Ill think about it.
So im like Damnit~!
Ok fine.

And that sucks because I need it like ....asap.

Oh well, fine, think about it.....prick.

So We start to drive away and we see this hella sad puppy on the side of the road.
all wet and nappy.

We pull over and im like katie go!

She calls for the dog and it comes gladly.
Its sooo cute~!
You have no idea.
So I named him Rupert.



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We take it back to my house and talk then take it to katrinas and we hung out there most of the day trying to get her mom to allow it to stay, it lookd hella tiny next to domo(a labrador.)
We hang out all day till almost time to go to the empress, and were like oh shits.
We called everyone and not a single person would take the dog for a few hours.
So we had to leave it in katies car.
It was sad, oh well.
So got to the empress, all was well and dandy, I ended up wanting a drink and so I had to find an atm, so I go to my car, and find out I was driving unlisenced.
That sucks.

So aldo offers to take me to get my lisence and debit card, So I proceed to drive away with the mexican.
Hes like bla bla bla something baja blast mtn dew.

Me: I LOVE THAT STUFF~!
Aldo: ME 2~!
Me: lets do it!
Aldo: What plow?
Me:...
Aldo: Or get mountain dew, thats cool to.

So we get my stuff from my house and go to the atm, well that was an odd experience. LOL
then go to taco bell, where I yelled at the lady on the intercom and she freaked out at me and is like leave, then I rapidly apologized and proclaimed my love for her.

....

Then she over charged me for aldos food and we drove back to the empress.

I get there and aldos like bla bla lets go sit in the pit.

Hahaha see how much I listen?
All I hear is bla bla, loljk.

We go there and watch the remainder or jesters royale, and that was funny as hell.
Jacob actually guessed why he was late for work within an hour~!
It was amazing!

So when all that ended katie went back to her house to live in her car with rupert cuz her mom wont let it stay.
So.....yeah.

I visited her for a while, and now im here, texting kerstea and stephen, in attempts to get models.

So Imma go to bed now, night.

5/2/09

damn bird cage

So I need this bird cage that this couple has, I want it so much for the hermit shoot.
But I am broke.

and it is 400 dollars.

:(

I cant come up with that much in a day, so I went and asked them if I can rent it and they are like idk lol.

T___T

Ugh it kills me.

video of the friken year

Oh my jesus, I totally know the kid that called tom green.
Xenon got a bazillion points in my mind.



More testing

So more practicing with well everything and its dog, and I took this photo a while ago.
See the difference.


Original.
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Adobe Photoshop.
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Lightroom.
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Lightroom + Photoshop
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I still cant decide what I like :(

5/1/09

Oh my lightroom

So I recently aquired lightroom to use for my upcoming projects, and I have discovered the beauty of it.

This image was shot in RAW format and was origionally edited with some shitty editor I happen to have, thats the only one that allows raw files.
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Pretty....sure.

But not good.


So I took it to lightroom and well, pushed buttons randomly (not really) and came out with this.

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only sad thing is after the save I experienced quite a bit of quality loss, I really need to fix that.

Alas my search for knowledge continues for the best way to use RAW.

*cries*

Ill get there, eventually.