The Green Tourment

So oh lordie lord.
Woke up and robby bobbie called.
she came over and she took me and marcus to go to turn in our applications and some chick from Seattle talked to us and the other the applicants.
Afterwards my car broke down which is awesome. only not, it dies in the middle of the road, quite offensive.
made tony, marcus, and saul, push my car while i was laying on my car
then i decided to play dress up with robby bobbie and we wore all black gothy stuff. it was just lol. robyn did not look enough like a whore. very upsetting. :(

I went with marcus and robyn and we went to aces and fixed his piercing, oh btw we pierced marcus's lips <3
They look great. ^^
irish J got a new tattoo , sick as fuck I like it indeed.
he pointed out my ring, slightly embarrassing but ah well my reasons are my reasons.


we went driving around and went to ihop and had this awesome waitress and this cool balloon lady who stopped at every other table making balloon animals and stuff for the kids and people and i really wanted to get a balloon animal but she never stopped by the table.
anyways...

we needed alcohol. so we called up a buddy (sorry we can not share them name. it's in the rules.) and got some wonderful candy liquor. but saul was weirding us out so we were like peace out shadowbrook and hello park place. it was beautiful................... until some guy got his panties bunched up so after the exploration of the dirty lesbian fun drawer which scarred marcus for life we were out of there too.

so back to shadowbrook.... oh how we missed thee. cracked open the bottles and the party was in full swing. shot after shot in the closet of lights. god that slurpee was good........
so everyone was getting drunk and robyn and cookie were getting it on in the closet so we all bounced outside. smoke it up yo.

A snail called atlas

So my life currently is a swirling ball of hell.
I work where I dont want to, at times that make no sense.
Because of such I can never sleep when I need to or be awake when needed.
I have constant back pains and am always in pain or am sick.
I only get around to eating one meal a day.
I never go outside.
I have no want to do anything.
Im constantly depressed beyond my conscious reasoning.
The only time I care to be alive anymore is when Im sleeping.
I live in an apartment that causes the most severe stress.
With an incompetent roommate.
And a jobless one.
both of whom totaled their cars in the same week.
I pay for everything.
I make nothing.
I do nothing.
I want something.
But have no idea what it is.
I thought this would help me go somewhere.
Leaving my parents, I thought this would help me move ahead in life.
Its just moving me 1 step closer to my demise and wasting time I could be happy in my life.
I hate it here.
But I cannot leave.
I want to go home.
Or I want to fix this place.
My ex sleeps in my living room and fucks his girlfriend around my house.
It bothers me.
Hes homeless and comes here and takes advantage of this place.
I want him to leave.
But I cant seem to say anything.
My best friend is always depressed so talking to her just keeps me in the same mindset.
I wish she was happy, so she could help me be happy.
My ex lost my snake.
so now Dratini is somewhere in my apt, we searched everywhere.
I am upset to no end.
I am constantly fatigued.
in a constant state of insomnia because people are always here.
I want them all to just leave.
But my idiotic roommate who has no care about anything but concerts wont put an end to it.
He just wants to get all my friends high and drunk.
how exciting.
I want to cry but cant.
I want to be creative but im strained.
I wish to create something but I have no want.
I have not taken a single photograph in months.
I miss the me that had willpower.
But I seem to have lost it.
:(

I wish there was some way out of here.
I just want to be free to be happy again.

an unfortunate

Im breaking, breaking.
I am loosing myself to depression and despair If this is the life we all must mold to then I would gladly be done with it.

I have no will.
No want.

Just trying to survive.
Nobody can save me.
when everybody is the problem.

I wish this was different.
I wish I could just leave this place.

cock block

so lately I cant seem to think of a single photo I even want to have the balls to get off my ass and take, I found this girl named angel and she is incredible and I would love to take shots of her, and this girl katy oh my geeze both of these women totally make me hard but fuck.
I have no inspiration.
what a cock block ya know?
its so unfortunate.
bleah other than that cock block life... its pretty much a huge cock block.

Anime Lately

So I got super into Romeo X Juliet, and adored every second of it right down to the very end.
I mean we all know how a story about romeo and juliet will end but hey I didint see quite how it would happen.
Phew that anime was just, epic shit.
definitely one of my new favorite.
Another one is Darker than black.
Fuck yes.
honestly I don't think anybody could possibly be smoother than the guy on darker than black.
no lie no lie.

uhm, I saw claymore id like to finish it but its not one imma go out of my way to finish.
anyway thats an update.